PAIN IN THE ASHES
Last month while I was on a business trip in China, my phone was persistently ringing and when I picked it up, my daughter Pianne was shouting:
“MOM, Qualibet is on fire, YOU NEED TO COME HOME!!!
After hearing this, I got so blinded with fear, and anxiety and I try to book the first flight out of China to come home. It was the most anxious filled 2 hour plane ride and I was praying so hard to the Lord to please take charge of everything. I surrender my pain to him
SEEING THE SITE AFTER FIRE
After landing in Manila, I didn’t know what to expect. Qualibet is my BABY project. It is my cancer advocacy to protect consumer rights in the Philippines. It is my contribution to the Filipino people.
This is what greeted me when I checked the fire. I felt so NUMB, I couldn’t even get myself to cry. Until today, I cant take the tears in my heart to cry , it was painful seeing it and more painful not being able to BE THERE LEADING THE TEAM to safety.
PAIN ALLOWS YOU TO KNOW YOUR REAL FRIENDS and ALLIES
When the fire happened, it was truly a very painful and traumatic experience for me. Thank God nobody got hurt. But it is during these time God allowed me to see TRUE COLORS of people.
A) Friends, clients and business partners who visited, prayed for me, brought food and flowers, and gave me the hug I need. (Until now, I cherish it)
B) Friends and staff and business partners who emailed, sent me a text reassuring me that they are here for me, no matter what storms in life I am facing– The love were overwhelming and it help heal the pain inside.
C) There were so called “friends” pretending to be family: Those who barely even asked how we were while trying to ask for personal and work favors, sell safety and fire equipment without even considering how I was. (I would love to help them but i find it very USER and Taking Advantage )– These are the USER FRIENDLY PEOPLE
ONLY IN PAINFUL and LOWEST MOMENTS do you realize who the people who love you are. My family, my bible study group, and my kikay girls, and some close friends have been my strongest allies thus far…
God has a plan for all these hurts and pain– To open my eyes to people, my staff, and even so called friends who used me, abused me, or lifted me up…
This is the time “THE MASQUERADE HAS ENDED”…you see what’s behind…
Until today, after 65 days after the fire, I have never cried. I am too afraid to show my team I am weak. I shall always be their strong leader and I believe in everyone in Qualibet. I strongly rely on my bible study group headed by Bulgin Manapat) even though I rarely attend due to a lot of challenges ,because all of them have been praying for my healing and recovery.
PAIN OPENS THE HEART FOR US TO KNOW TRULY STANDS BESIDE US… And who are ONLY there during happy times
In 65 DAYS, Watch out for the bigger and better Qualibet… To God be the praise and glory